pickmeup.

"Don't let your mind get weary and confused
Your will be still, don't try
Don't let your heart get heavy child
Inside you there's a strength that lies

Don't let your soul get lonely child
It's only time, it will go by
Don't look for love in faces, places
It's in you, that's where you'll find kindness"
--ray lamontagne

really soak in these lyrics. they're the 100% God's honest truth.
i love you.
xo.

baby buster.

so, in case you haven't heard, i'm going to be an auntie AGAIN!!!!!!! :) Amy's finally got all her hard work ;) paid off! She's pregnant! I'm seriously so excited to go through this whole process again. I've already started looking @ baby clothes & toys all over again. My prediction this time is a boy, but I, of course, will be ecstatic whichever way it goes! (just no twins amy!!! haha) i've been praying for this day for at least a year now and it's such a great feeling to have God deliver tenfold. I can't wait to walk through this pregnancy, amy, and to be there for you every step of the way! you've finally got your little angel, i can't wait to be fun auntie shannon or your baby daddy (haha) whichever you may need. i love you so much and can never thank you enough for this gift you have given me!! Just when I thought my heart was full, God shows me that there's always room for more!! so, here's to baby buster<3<3<3

ting ting.

number 67- go to an improv show.

so, this 101 list is getting completed a lot quicker than i thought it would! Danny & Roxann randomly invited me to go to the improv last night to go see Danny's coworker/good friend who does stand up and I said yes, of course, before I even realized it was on my 101 list! So that made me even more excited! Well, Roxann picked me & Danny up and we headed to Irvine. We started the night @ Yardhouse with some great drinks. I got a Godstopper martini & Rox got a Sweet Tart one. Which were quickly followed by a shot of Patron. So, we thought we had finished before the show, but Danny ordered another round of beers, so me and Roxann thought we were golden. We ordered another round of martinis (I got the sweet tart one this time!) and before we even took a drink, the guys had finished their beers and me & rox had to down our martinis!! Let me tell you, if you're being classy by ordering a martini, all that class flies straight out the window when u chug it! hahah. So we made our boozy way over to the improv, had a few more drinks & laughed our butts off! It was seriously so much fun!! Walking in we saw that Jo Koy is performing there Valentine's Day weekend. Now, if you're reading this, you probably know who Jo Koy is. He had a comedy special on Comedy Central and me & Jason fell in love & spread the wealth. Ever since then, his jokes have been regular conversation in our group of friends. Well, Danny left & surprised us with 4 tickets for his upcoming show! I'm seriously SO excited!!

jo koy<3<3<3<3

2fer.

number 90- watch Paige all by myself

so i didn't even try and i completed 2 of my 101 tasks today! i'm seriously so excited. if this is 2010's way of turning things around, then keep it coming!! jaimie had asked me to watch paige today while she went out and got a few things done. and even though paige is inching nearer and nearer her 1st birthday (my GOD how time flies) I still hadn't watched her all alone yet (for more than a half hour) and i've wanted to. Not only do i love my niece dearly and cherish every minute i get to spend with her, it also meant SO much to me to know that Jaimie trusted me alone with her child. It's a HUGE compliment in my book. So, Jaimie dropped her off @ around 11 and we had SO much fun. She was SO in love with penny and penny was not having it. Then, a couple hours in she started getting really fussy so i went to put her down for her nap and she FREAKED out. and I know you're supposed to let babies cry themselves to sleep, but I couldn't do it so i picked her up and she just really wanted to be held. So we were cuddling and the next thing i noticed, she was totally passed out on my arm. she's so precious! it's seriously one of the best feelings in the world!

number 10- get a tattoo

secondly. tonight at work i got a wild hair up my ass and wanted to get my dragonfly tattoo that i've wanted for forever. so, i called my sister amy bcuz she's always up to do these kind of things on a whim with me and of course, she was up for it. So i called my tattoo artist steve and jetted over to autumn moon after work!! Amy liked the drawing that I was going to get so she got the same thing (different colors)! I wanted to get a dragonfly because every year when i go on the float (especially the first year) there's dragonflies everywhere. and the first year as i was passing out for my mid-float nap (lol) i just remember looking up @ the sky and loving the sun and seeing them flying around. It just gives me a serene feeling.

<3

i'm writing a blog to hopefully break the curse. we're 6 days into 2010 and i already hate it. this last week has been so overwhelming and exhausting for me. i literally have never in my life felt more drained or pushed to my limits. with word going around work that lay offs are in order, jackie being in and out of the hospital, and me already being an emotional wreck, 2010 has not been good to me. so, here's to breaking the cycle, keeping my chin up & thinking positively. just to put a little skip in my step, here are things 2010 has to offer:

-seeing jillian's face

-taking my engagement photos

-witnessing jessica say "i do"

-lots of fun stree-free wedding planning (see, i said thinking positively!)

-watching paige grow more

-moving out of these apartments

-working on my photography

i'm sure there's many more new, fun & exciting things to come. :) so come on, 2010 get outta your funk and treat me good. xoxo.

101 in 1001.

So my cousin Jessica wrote this super inspirational blog about a list of 101 things she will complete in 1001 days. I was so intrigued and inspired by it that I decided to make one myself & I've been telling all my friends to do it, too! The list is in absolutely no importance or timeline type of order, I wrote things down as they popped in my head. I'm starting my list Monday, January 4th 2010; which means my last day to finish everything will be October 2nd, 2012 (if I did my math correctly). So here it is, I'll keep you updated as I complete each task!!

1. Read my Canon tutorials.

2. Go to Vegas - completed 08.28.10

3. Go to Oregon

4. Go to a taping of Ellen

5. Get my passport - completed 02.21.11

6. Take a nap on the beach

7. Go visit grandma in Arizona - completed 02.11.11

8. Get a full body massage

9. Learn how to ride a 2-wheeler on the dirt.

10. Get a tattoo - completed 01.08.10

11. Hold Jillian in my arms - completed 02.06.10

12. Hear Paige say my name - completed 02.23.11 "auntie"

13. Hear Jillian say my name - completed 02.27.11 "Nanana!"

14. Go wine tasting - completed 02.27.10

15. Go to Medieval Times

16. Buy a beer pong table

17. Rent a cabin, in the mountains, in the winter time, with friends

18. Go on a romantic weekend get-a-way with Jason - completed 02.14.11

19. Finally send in my hair to Locks Of Love

20. Run a mile- time it. Exercise, get fit. Then run another mile and beat that time. - completed 12.10

21. Play beach volleyball

22. Go fishing

23. Take a body shot

24. Go to the float- and BE the party group. - completed 07.31.2010

25. Go to Laughlin - completed 06.04.2010

26. Swim with dolphins

27. Look into acrobatics & hopefully take a class

28. Get off Lexapro - completed 05.10

29. Go to Disneyland when it "snows"

30. Go on a hike

31. Have a baby (get pregnant)

32. Go to a concert - completed 07.14.2010 (kings of leon)

33. Go to Hollywood & make a whole day (& night) out of it - completed 03.26.11

34. Go to Sgt. Pepper's (again...) - completed 03.26.11

35. Visit the Grand Canyon

36. Make a new friend - completed!!

37. Go to Four Corners

38. Go back to San Fran - completed 02.26.10

39. Get Jason a dog

40. Wish on a shooting star - completed 07.11.2010

41. Give a new life to my 3 succulents (aka. get 3 new ones) - completed 07.24.2010

42. Get a new DVD rack & re-alphabetize

43. Attend a UFC fight

44. Get at least $3,000 in my savings

45. Eat an amazing filet mignon - completed

46. Kiss in the rain

47. Kiss while watching fireworks

48. Get an easily portable digital camera - completed 07.23.2010 (bday present from jay & family)

49. Go swimming in the ocean - completed 08.02.2010

50. Feel comfortable in a bikini

51. Learn how to comfortably ride a jet ski

52. Wakeboard

53. Go to San Diego's Gas Lamp District & make a mini-vaca out of it (hotel & all).

54. Get a facial - completed 08.26.2010

55. Do a girls day at Glen Ivy

56. Get my ears re-pierced - completed 11.2010

57. Buy a pair of Seven jeans

58. Use my Tiffany's gift card - completed 11.2010

59. Make homemade macaroni & cheese for Jason

60. Give Venice Beach another try

61. Take boudoir photos

62. Buy a pogo stick & use it (at least once!).

63. Pay off & cancel my Union & Target credit cards

64. Do something Queen Mary related

65. Go on a long, aimless drive with Sarah (& maybe Jillian).

66. Go to an NFL game (perferably Cowboys vs. Chargers)

67. Go to an improv show - completed 01.13.10

68. Go to the dentist - completed 09.04.2010

69. Weigh my goal weight - completed 03.07.2011

70. Have a picnic

71. Eat sashimi

72. Have a fancy night-out limo ride with my very best girlfriends

73. Move out of these apartments - completed (officially) 04.01.10

74. Get a bookcase and organize my books

75. Have a bridal shower - completed 03.12.11

76. Have a bachelorette party - completed 03.26.11

77. Have a wedding

78. Go on my dream honeymoon

79. Celebrate my 1 year wedding anniversary

80. Take my engagement photos - completed 10.08.10

81. Start tracking my period - completed

82. Save all my photos onto CDs & delete them off my computer

83. Take a photography class

84. Go to Catalina

85. Buy & watch the Planet Earth DVDs

86. Shoot a gun. (safely!) - completed 06.26.2010

87. Take a gondola ride

88. Go to a Las Vegas show

89. Attend a New Moon party with Jess, Sarah & Haley

90. Watch Paige all by myself - completed 01.08.10

91. Have a sleepover with Paige AND Jillian

92. Go on a cruise

93. Completely clean out closet, drawers, etc. and donate. - completed 03.30.10

94. Go to the zoo - completed 04.02.10

95. Do a pole dancing work out class

96. Play beer pong in Vegas

97. Do a photo shoot with Jackie

98. Brew my own beer with Jason

99. Do a Vegas turnaround

100. Go kayaking

101. Make a new 101 list :)