rockin' the casbah

To my sister, my best friend.HAPPY 25th BIRTHDAY!!

I am so unbelievably grateful for how close we've gotten these past couple of years. Sometimes I honestly forget that I have the luck of being related to you. You are my best friend and just the type of personality I need in my life. NO one calms me down like you can when i'm a riled up, irrational crying mess. You are my strength, my support. You're my voice of reasoning when I can't seem to find my way. And on a less emotional note, you're my all-time favorite drinking partner!! You've shown me SO many new and fun things and yet I still have the time of my life with you in our pjs, scrapbooking and playing yahtzee. Thank you for giving me a reason to smile on days when I didn't even want to get out of bed. And thank you for knowing me for me, the good & the bad, and loving me anyway. What better present can I give you for your birthday, here:

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Love you with my whole heart. All day. Every day.

this is quick but not quite painless...

I'm a war of head versus heart
And it's always this way
My head is weak, my heart always speaks
Before I know what it will say


...more to come when i can straighten these thoughts out.

cheeeeese! :)

so i've really been itchin' to start up my photography again. i looooove how it feels to make the world look like you want it to look behind a lens. i wish i could make it my lifestyle. i would LOVE to be a professional photographer. so on that note, i really think i'm going to get back into taking tons more pictures! so if anyone wants/needs or is willing to be my subject, please let me know!! i'm definitely a beginner, but i'm so passionate bout it. here's a few of ones i've taken in the past.

happy memorial day :)

"A hero is someone who has given his or her

life to something bigger than oneself."

hope everyone's memorial day was sun-tastic. :) even though it's a great day to celebrate the outdoors, bbq, and show the sun some love or get paid double time (woop woop!), i hope everyone took some much needed time to appreciate the people who fight for our freedom.

i realized today @ work how much people take their crappy moods out on the people around them. it surprises me every single day how horribly perfect strangers treat each other. working one-on-one with hundreds of customers on a daily basis, i can say firsthand that smiles really are contagious. a kind customer seriously can (and has on many occasions) made my entire day. so my daily advice (to myself, too) is really think before you speak or act. i know i've been guilty of taking my horrible moods out on the people around me (strangers and loved ones, alike) and i'm going to change that. there's a difference between confiding your crummy feelings to someone and taking it out on them and i think distinguishing the two is really going to make my days a whole lot brighter. smiles are contagious, infect someone today.

ambien beginnings.

this is the part where i realize how extremely grateful i am to not have something dramatically interesting to write about. although, it would make for some great entertainment, i had taken my beloved, ambien almost an hour ago, and with it went my originality, creativity, and sleep resistance. i'm doing this blog for and because the people i love. i love reading their blogs and now they'll have that same opportunity. (i repeat, opportunity; not requirement). i also think this will be something extremely beneficial to me because my insomnia leaves me up late at night with several things on my minds and now i have a mode to release. welcome to my diary entries- please tread carefully.